Dad

Its been a rough week for my family. A week ago my father past away. We had thought he was getting better and then suddenly hes gone. I have started this post so many times this past week but I just wasnt ready. I am not even sure if I am ready now.

Just a few weeks ago I was blogging about how sometimes its time to say The End and start not a new chapter in your life but a new book. I was excited about starting my new book and then suddenly it starts out with a tragedy. Its easy to just not move forward and its understandable when something life shattering happens that you put things on hold. Just take the time that you need and every person is different so dont think there is a set time and you or your family need to be back in full swing in a week, month or even a year. Give yourself a break and allow yourself to grieve. Let others help you and dont be afraid to ask for their help if you need it.

I would sometimes send my dad a text showing him something new I was doing or he would see it on Facebook and comment. My favorite replies from him were when we would tell me it was something that my great grandma would do.

 Around this time of year is when you start looking for those wooly worms so you know if you are going to have mild winter or a wild winter. I would always send my wooly worm pics to dad because I forgot what the bands on them meant. I guess this year I will just have to be surprised with winter.

This week has been filled with lots of sadness over loss but also filled with so many wonderful memories. I realize how lucky I am to have them and I mourn for those who did not have a crazy dad who loved life and filled their life with good times and lots of laughter. I am a lucky girl.

If you see me and ask how I am doing I will probably burst into tears but do not worry. My dad raised me to think for myself and to be who I want to be with no apologies. So in the words of father I will be fine. Fine as a frog hair split three times.